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Needed something new...

 It's a new year. It's a new beginning. It's another time to start things over. It's another time to continue something new. It's finally time for me to decide.


And besides, I'VE BEEN DYING TO CHANGE MY USERNAME! So, here goes the NEWS:

I'm moving back to WordPress in another username. I'm starting all over again but I'll link this blog to that new blog I'm having. Don't ask why... I just felt like I needed my Blog to start clean and end clean. 

 I wanted to keep LJ since I found it cool that I've grown from high school to College in here but things here have turned out stupid and weird. It turned out to be a place where I just blab about nonsense. 

I want to start anew. 

Goodbye and Good Luck, LJ. Don't be sad. I might post on you again. You're lucky though I'm saying goodbye. I never said bye to my first WP blog. 


Bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye

Here goes the link: herroyalsexiness.wordpress.com/

PS.: Don't go delete yourself and break into pieces without telling me. :D

Don't make me cry T.T

 Because I'm so effin confused!

And to think you said that you've never made a girl cry. You even joked that you could make me cry because of some dumb dare which I lost in. I didn't cry because of that though. It was because you played the piano. I'm not even quite sure if I should say "play the piano FOR ME." Because, I'm not quite sure if you're playing for me. I knew for a fact that I was the only one listening to you play because...

A. I was the one you YM-ed
B. I was the one you voice called.
C. You said that I should just listen to you play because you were bored.

And when that happened, I was so confused. I was so lost, wondering if I were still to continue having a crush on you. Because:

C. I like you... 

But now, I'm not sure at all.

You were playing so nicely and I just got teary eyed because my heart was beating too fast, I was so lost and I didn't know what to do. I didn't even expect that you'd do such a thing for me. Maybe you were really just bored and bothered to annoy me because you saw me online. Maybe it was just that. 

And maybe... YOU SHOULDN'T BE PLAYING AROUND WITH A HOPELESS ROMANTIC LIKE ME because I get hurt easily! Even if I don't look like it and I'm always smiling and giggly, I'M HURT. I'm absolutely hurt.

But I love it when you suddenly chat up with me online or offline, even if its about the stupidest things. Like about your music, or if you just randomly type down my name. It's crazy but it makes me think: Hey, you actually took a small amount of your time just to think of me. It makes me happy and that's it. 




 Because, I thought that when we became good friends, you would be someone I trust. I thought you would be someone who would keep a secret, and would hide it from the world.

But no. You aren't someone I can trust. I don't think I could even call you a friend anymore. I tell you one good secret, in exchange for keeping your good secret. But here you are, backbiting about me. Telling me that I am flirting with this guy that we both like. THAT IS BULL!

My last post talked about someone not liking me so much. Only to find out, that that person is someone I completely trust. I have not said a word about behind her back no matter how much I want to. I never wanted to because I believed in her. I told her  that I liked Mr. V because I found out that she used to like him, too. Mr. V likes to annoy me. A LOT. And I mean, he just goes to me and annoy me. But this is what my dear friend thought I was doing. SHE THOUGHT I WAS FLIRTING WITH ME. Which is completely wrong. I've been thinking about it a little, and I realize probably she's just jealous. Or probably, she just doesn't like the way I talk to him. 

I just can't believe her anymore.

I've lost two good friends. But I'm not quite sure if I can call them good anymore.

I didn't really talk to them properly today. One of them was being normal to me. The other just didn't seem to mind about me. She never smiled while looking at me. I mean, I'm not supposed to know about them backbiting me anyway. 

I mean, seriously guys, I thought that I found a friend that I could trust. And I was wrong. I think I learned something new. I just can't trust anyone anymore. I learned it the hard way. But I guess, I needed a smack in face. I slightly deserved to know it that way because my mom's been repeating things like that over and over again. 

It hurt but I've learned quite a lot. 

Thanks but not really. 



 Does anyone know what it feels like to be hated?

My good friend chatted with me bringing bad news. She told me that she overheard that there were some people who were most likely backbiting me. The words she used were: There are some people who don't like you that much.

Here I am. Trying to be an honest and cheerful girl. I try to make friends with everybody except for this girl I hate so badly - seriously, I placed my trust on her only to leave me behind. I don't know what I did wrong.

Did I do anything wrong?

Am I bad person?

Lynx :((

Dissecting Zoology

 Saturday Evening, at around 10 PM:

I couldn't fall asleep due to the fact I was texting a good friend, and told her a huge secret. I decided to study Zoology. I drank some coffee to let me stay awake. I visited facebook, chatted with a friend, he fell asleep, I left thirty minutes after. I continued to study for Zoology. Once I was done with it, I fell asleep. That was around 12:30 AM.

I never knew I could actually study...Collapse )

Oh well, it's never impossible if I don't try.

Peace out.


My head is stuck in the clouds. She begs me to come down. Says "Boy quit foolin' around" I told her "I love the view from up her. The warm sun and wind in my ear. We'll watch the world from above. As it turns to the rhythm of love"
Rhythm of Love - Plain White T's
 I attack my friends' walls.

I was bored... I had nothing to do. I, then noticed how boring my friends' walls were in Facebook and I couldn't help myself but attack it. Therefore, maybe I should be sued for wall harassment. 

PS.: I was quite high when all of that happened. 




 No matter how much you admit you're done with liking him, I know that deep inside you still like that annoying bastard. I don't want to fight for him. Can't we just be there for each other? Even if... that guy comes along between us?

One Hectic Ride

I've done quite some unpromising things... But I also did start a new life. It was kind of something like that.

I got dizzy from drinking for the first time.... tsk tsk tskCollapse )

I am so exhausted.

Peace out.


Baby, you're a firework. Come on, let your colors burst. Make 'em go, oh. You're gonna leave 'em falling down. You don't have to feel like a waste of space. You're original, cannot be replaced. If you only knew what the future holds. After a hurricane comes a rainbow.
-Fireworks by Katy Perry


 I. wanna. shoot. someone. BIG TIME!


 Fanfiction here I come!!!!

Well, starting off with that line makes me sound like I don't have a life. It kind of make me think that all I ever do is write and write and write and satisfy myself with the reviews that people give me. And I really love those long and sweet reviews, filled with love and admiration for my work. Yes, that's how my ego looks like. I eat up all the good stuff.

But seriously, I owe my readers a lot. I made them wait for more than three months!! Three months! Why would I be that mean to my readers??? Why???

Because freaking college took away my internet and my anime life. Think about how much I suffered!

On to other news...

Yes, Sembreak just started yesterday. I have a birthday to attend to tomorrow. Lexus' debut is coming, too. And my friends from the other cities are finally arriving.

A REUNION IS GOING TO TAKE PLACE!!!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! I've been waiting for this moment. Finally, it is going to happen. WAAAAZZZZAAAAHHH!!!!

And that is all folks. 


I love ya'll!


PS.: I SAW BEHEMOTH IN A BOOKSTORE. I HAVE TO GET MY HANDS ON IT! NOOOOOOOOOOOOW!!!! It looked sooo green and prettttttttttyyy... I touched it twice. hugged it twice. and smelled it twice. i couldn't handle reading through it though. i knew that i had to read it in an appropriate place. AT HOME.

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